Things are finally starting to settle for me a little bit so I don’t know why I keep fighting it. My heart is still heavy and my brain is still disheveled, but I have good people in my life and my own apartment and I probably shouldn’t complain. School really stresses me out. I put too much pressure on myself. I also feel a lot of pressure because everyone is telling me that I can do it and sometimes I just really don’t think or believe I can. It’s just getting exhausting running wild on empty. On the same token, I often remind myself that things could be worse. Because right around this time 5 years ago, I was 18 years old and trying not to see today. I’m really trying to work on my train wreck attitude.
“The Cosmos is all that is or ever was or ever will be. Our feeblest contemplations of the Cosmos stir us — there is a tingling in the spine, a catch in the voice, a faint sensation of a distant memory, as if we were falling from a great height. We know we are approaching the greatest of mysteries.”—Carl Sagan, “Cosmos” (via artandthemind)