Today I woke up thinking it was a different day than it actually was. I hate being that confused so early in the morning. These past 3 days have sort of blended together in a magical and smoky way. I realize that I am currently numb and only reacting to about 10% about what is actually happening. I don’t know how to stop that. What the fuck am I doing? It’s amazing how a notebook and a candle can change your life.
I’ve been writing a lot of haikus lately. Since I’ve been staying at my nana’s, I was thinking about typing some of the better ones up on the old tyepwriter in the back room. My typewriter is ribonless and this one makes a better clicking noise than mine anyway. Maybe i will share them.
“chocolate makes you happy and it keeps you awake as you unbutton your top pants button bewildered by the pain oh oh oh chocolate makes you happy as you deign to sing along when you thrust two fingers down your throat and wash away whats wrong oh oh oh”—